Sorry blame it on me

Now I know what disappointment feels like. As a graduation gift, my dad bought me a trip for London with all being paid. However, I was going to spend a week with my bf with she called me yesterday due to the fact she has got an opportunity to work as a English teacher in Italy in July. Therefore, I might have to spend a week all by myself. Sure, I know her roomies since I've been there before and I knew one of them even before but it won't be the same. We had planned this for forever, she even made herself free from work that week, so even if I'll have a good time, it won't be the same at all. A and P won't be able to spend time with me 24/7 due to work. She's not sure if she'll be going yet, and I must point out that I feel with her. If it wouldn't be for me, she would be going.

I wish not to force her staying in London, but, she's going to India for sex weeks in August. If she'll be going to Italy, she must quit her job and look for a new when she gets back won't be the easiest since the economy worldwide isn't the greatest. I'd understand her more if it was for three, six months but sacreefising all that stability she has built up by fighting for it, won't be worth for a month. At least that's my opinion.

M, if you read this, I'm not mad with you, I'm just frustrated of the situation. I love you anyway.

Radio

Shaking like a dog shittin' razorblades,
waking up next to nothing after dreaming of you and me
I'm waking up all alone, waking up so relieved
while you're taking your time with apologies,
I'm making my plans for revenge
Red eyes on orange horizons
If Columbus was wrong I'd drive straight off the edge
I'd drive straight off the edge

Taking your own life with boredom,
I'm taking my own life with wine -
it helps you to rule out the sorrow,
it helps me to empty my mind
Making the most of a bad time
I'm smoking the brains from my head
Leaving the coal calling the kettle black and orange and red
This kettle is seeing red

I've got a big fat fuckin' bone to pick with you my darling
In case you haven't heard I'm sick and tired of trying
I wish you would take my radio to bathe with you,
plugged in and ready to fall

Kings of Leon, 07/07

I got a pleasant surprise earlier after opening my mail box.

Taper Jean Girl

Malin got home from London today for her father's wedding. We went out clubbing but she went home early since she didn't feel well. Me myself stayed and had such a bless.

Going to hook up with Kevin tomorrow for him buying tickets to Kings of Leon's show for me. Life's sweet, I'd rather say.

SEX ON FIRE

Happy 23th birthday Rob.

It's 1 AM and the alarm clock will call in just a few hours, but in some kind of bizarre way this post felt necessary doing since I'd forgot it due to a packed schedule.

Charmer

she's such a charmer, she's always looking at me, she's always looking at me, she's such a charmer, she stole my Karma, sold it to the farmer, she's always looking at me, she's such a charmer, born in West Virginia, married to the preacher, she's always looking at me, she's such a charmer, she's always looking at me.

Book based movies

For a last project in English class, we're supposed to write about something related to an English-talking country. It wasn't hard for me to decide what to work with, book based movies. I love books. I love movies. Perfect. Also, it gives me a chance to write about something I love. Twilight. This isn't any hard, no need to study for it... Just to write. Almost like a hobby.

XII / Shooter

I've felt really sick ever since I got home Saturday night. I've only puked twice but I had to call in sick at work which sucks since I can't afford to loose any money at this point. Yaya.

However, the day has offered me the opportunity to watch movies which is something I rarely do. I love movies, but there's not enough time, also that you must have at least one and a half hour to spend. Well, my sister had rented a movie yesterday called XII (Thirteen) starring Stephen Dorff. Shortly it's about a guy who is found by a elder, he also rescued his life. Having a memory loss due to the fact of been hit by gunshots, he has not a clue who he himself is. Pretty soon, he realizes he's important. He's been claimed to have shot the American President and this is his "story" to clear his name and bring out that the American governemt is involved. The second movie I saw (like for the 10th time) is Shooter starring Mark Wahlberg. Also about a president being killed, him being framed by the government who is the reason behind it.

By me, watching two movies during a day in the same genre and the same plot maked me think. Get me no wrong, I love both movies but it always have the same aim. Bad guys - a victim - a hero etcetera. Never before given that much thought about it. + the guys are always superhot! Both Dorff and Wahlberg are hotties and I usually don't get attracted by that type of guys, but I guess it's something about their personalities. Smart and brave.

Too far gone

As you may know, I recently got a sibling. Well, she's ten weeks by now. Anyway, I love her. But not as much as I love my shoes. Like you may know, there's a special bond with your sister and brother. You get into fights. Tonight I'd rather say I got into a fight with my heels. They killed me. Never done before. Thought my feet were going to crash any second.

I know you're working and that ain't wrong

LDN

Dad bought me tickets to London about an hour ago.
He's the keenest one you may meet and I love him.
IT WILL BE RAD. (Like always)
Guess I have to endure not moving there 'till January.

Shit, piss, fuck, cunt, cocksucker, motherfucker, tits, fart, terd, and twat.

CRAWL

Today's +

Going to order tickets for Kings Of Leon during today
Schools over for the weekend.
Spent time with Meds.
Went to the gym and got my Converse since I by accident left them there a few days ago.

Today's -

It's been raining all day long and I just realized it's a thunderstorm.
I'm going to work in less than an hour.
Forgot to go lend a book for my studies at the library.

Four kicks

I quite miss being blond.

ROB IS SO BEAUTIFUL THAT IT MAKES ME HURT INSIDE