Bette Davis Eyes

Baby

You're the best thing ever happened to me.

I feel so

What's happening to me?

Don't know, but it feels right.
So right.

London calling

Yeah... I'm leaving in a few hours.

So long!

My relationship

I think a lot, especially when I'm alone. What I think about, philosophize, may be about total different things. A few minutes ago i began to think and wonder about my relationship with music, Kings of Leon is. Imagine yourself being in a long-term relationship. You're sure that this is the person that you will live, and be with forever. This is the person that comforts you when it's needed, this is the person you makes you laugh. That kind of relationship is what I have with Kings of Leon, and that's why I also know that it will last forever. Every relationship has its ups and downs, I might not love them as much as I'm used to always - but most importantly - I know they'll always be there and that's what I value.

Slow night, so long

Slow night so long, she's frenching out the flavour
She's 17 but i done went and plum forgot it

No tears are gone they're pooling on the table
no tears are gone they're leaving their mark behind

So far so good she's absolutely wasted
She's handing up and changing her story around

I just don't know where leading ladies come from
I just don't know where that can be found

She's opened up just like she really knows me
I hate her face, but enjoy the company

I'll take you home, or back to Oklahoma
You're not so nice, but the sex sells so cheap

Rise and shine all you gold-diggin' mothers
Are you too good to tango with the poor, poor boys

KINGS OF fucking LEON

I went to Copenhagen this week to see them. Me and Elin met the most gorgeous boys and had a bless. It's all right, kill me now, at least I'll die happy. London is coming up on Wednesday. Will be awesome. I'm tired and trying to upload all the pictures from Denmark on Facebook which takes like forever.

Memories of D.

Every once in a while, my mind slips to some of my memories. Dating back to the age of 16-17, me and C used to hang out with some skaters. C ended up in a year long relationship with one of them, after having a crush on his friend. It was all very complicated. However, sometimes a few other guys joined us for parties and concerts. My purpose on writing this, is that one of these guys apparently fell in love with me the second he saw me (he told my friend he was interesting in me, the day after we first met, that night he had seen me being way too drunk and been puking all night, how he would have the eyes for me... I still cannot tell) However, since we had the same friends we hanged out from time to time... Made out. Had fun. But I had no feelings for him. A year later I talked to C about this, and she told me he still hadn't got over me. We hadn't met a single time that year. I think I've met him once these last years. I have no idea what he's up to, if he's even around, what he looks like. No fucking idea and it irritates me. I know I tried to convince myself to give it a try, but my negative thoughts seemed to get on the harder thought.

Tomorrow's "must do:s"

My calender is somewhere in the house. Probably by the table in the living room and since I'm lying in bed and is way too lazy to go get it, I use the blog for once (well, it happened before) as calender to note down tomorrow's "must do:s" before work at 5PM.

• Clean the second floor
  
• Gym
• Clean the car
• Book a hostel
  

Mr. Pattinson

Ed Westwick

I love this because;

• "CHAD?! At least call me Chase!!!"
• Kings Of Leon
  

Comic strip

I'm starring at a battle of wine and the thoughts crosses my mind; I should open it. I'm worth a glass (a bottle) of wine. After all, I've driven for three hours today. Layed so much effort in work these last days. And then my other half says; Nah, I shouldn't. I've been drinking way too much lately. Someone wants a battle of nice wine for free? It tastes good and you'll get drunk. Give me a call if so.

Graduation 090612

I graduated yesterday and had the best day and night every (ignoring the fact that my bf's boyfriend hit on me). This Saturday has included coach - water and TV. My limbs are non-move able since the alcohol made me quite clumsy... Or very. I'll update tomorrow again, still too hung over.



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Uh?

WTF. Kristen. Short hair. Makes no sense.
Well, it does, sort of. She's playing Joan Jett in The Runaways.
I'm taken by surprise. All though I liked her long hair, this hair cut actually suits her. Not many people would pull it off.

These boots are made for walking

If you saw right you would laugh. That's a promise. I'm walking around in my PJ's wearing my new heels, trying to stretch them out quite a bit. Plus I'm wearing wet socks to make it go faster. I bet I'll have a cold tomorrow waking up, in time for my prom. Just my luck.

In my head

I'm listening to Rob's music, pretty much as usual, but today - right now - it gives me more chills than ever.

15.26

HAHAHA.
Retard in Photo Booth.

I'm trouble

I'm at work and there's nothing to do at all. It took all in all two hours to do all the "must do's" and now here I am, with one hour left, sitting by the computer. Well, I shouldn't do this but my stomach hurts as well. My mind tells me there's a lot of things to do still, my hearts another.

A memory recently crossed my mind. Me and some friends were going into a club in central London called "Metro", a typical club playing indie music. However, we were quite tittering and one guard tells another in a low voice "trouble girls"

Killmangiro

It's quite rare getting complemented by strangers in today's society. That's way I was so chocked and therefore self-conscious at work. A customer, he's about 40, told me "You have such a beautiful smile, I noticed it when I first saw you and had to tell you". My reaction was to scratch my head, getting blushed cheeks, watching my feet and saying (in a quiet and timid voice); Thanks.... Eh. OK.

Day and nite'

School's officially over. Well, everything's handed in and I've received my grades. The finally is next week, prom at Wednesday and the breaking-up day at Friday. It feels a bit melancholy since I've actually spent the last three years with my class mates. However, I'll study once again this autumn but for now, it's over. To celebrate this, some of the girls went out yesterday but it was an early night for me. Think I got home around 00.00/12.00. It's pouring rain outside which crashed my plans to go out running before work. Can't I just not begin working now? Do I have to wait for four more hours? Sigh.

Naaaw

This is so incredible cute. First; Kristen drops the popcorn during her speech, and Rob's reaction by just laughing. If I'd drop the popcorn, I'd be called an idiot but somehow Kristen comes away with it. She's such a charmer!

Also I cannot understand Kristen didn't kiss Rob (never mind she has a bfriend) I'd so not dis him. I'd do him.(Cissi, reading this?)

Time for heroes

Life's an open battle, that's for sure. I constantly put myself in trouble. I wish I could talk about it all open fulfilly, but it's impossible. I wish I didn't have to had it, I wish I know why. I wish I wouldn't have put me in this stupid situation which must be kept in a secret from few individuals. I make myself sick! Trying to escape from reality, trying to ignore the problems and keep the horrible thoughts away. I've always been called a "dreamer" and that's for fact, is true. All though I may realize the problems it's hard to do something about it and now it's too late. I thought I'd manage it, but, in fact not. This stupid thing that's happened (by my own fault) will follow me forever. I won't ever forget it.

Well, on the happy side, I went to my hairstylist yesterday and re-did my hair. It's awesome and I'm satisfied.

Sorry blame it on me

Now I know what disappointment feels like. As a graduation gift, my dad bought me a trip for London with all being paid. However, I was going to spend a week with my bf with she called me yesterday due to the fact she has got an opportunity to work as a English teacher in Italy in July. Therefore, I might have to spend a week all by myself. Sure, I know her roomies since I've been there before and I knew one of them even before but it won't be the same. We had planned this for forever, she even made herself free from work that week, so even if I'll have a good time, it won't be the same at all. A and P won't be able to spend time with me 24/7 due to work. She's not sure if she'll be going yet, and I must point out that I feel with her. If it wouldn't be for me, she would be going.

I wish not to force her staying in London, but, she's going to India for sex weeks in August. If she'll be going to Italy, she must quit her job and look for a new when she gets back won't be the easiest since the economy worldwide isn't the greatest. I'd understand her more if it was for three, six months but sacreefising all that stability she has built up by fighting for it, won't be worth for a month. At least that's my opinion.

M, if you read this, I'm not mad with you, I'm just frustrated of the situation. I love you anyway.

Radio

Shaking like a dog shittin' razorblades,
waking up next to nothing after dreaming of you and me
I'm waking up all alone, waking up so relieved
while you're taking your time with apologies,
I'm making my plans for revenge
Red eyes on orange horizons
If Columbus was wrong I'd drive straight off the edge
I'd drive straight off the edge

Taking your own life with boredom,
I'm taking my own life with wine -
it helps you to rule out the sorrow,
it helps me to empty my mind
Making the most of a bad time
I'm smoking the brains from my head
Leaving the coal calling the kettle black and orange and red
This kettle is seeing red

I've got a big fat fuckin' bone to pick with you my darling
In case you haven't heard I'm sick and tired of trying
I wish you would take my radio to bathe with you,
plugged in and ready to fall

Kings of Leon, 07/07

I got a pleasant surprise earlier after opening my mail box.

Taper Jean Girl

Malin got home from London today for her father's wedding. We went out clubbing but she went home early since she didn't feel well. Me myself stayed and had such a bless.

Going to hook up with Kevin tomorrow for him buying tickets to Kings of Leon's show for me. Life's sweet, I'd rather say.

SEX ON FIRE

Happy 23th birthday Rob.

It's 1 AM and the alarm clock will call in just a few hours, but in some kind of bizarre way this post felt necessary doing since I'd forgot it due to a packed schedule.

Charmer

she's such a charmer, she's always looking at me, she's always looking at me, she's such a charmer, she stole my Karma, sold it to the farmer, she's always looking at me, she's such a charmer, born in West Virginia, married to the preacher, she's always looking at me, she's such a charmer, she's always looking at me.

Book based movies

For a last project in English class, we're supposed to write about something related to an English-talking country. It wasn't hard for me to decide what to work with, book based movies. I love books. I love movies. Perfect. Also, it gives me a chance to write about something I love. Twilight. This isn't any hard, no need to study for it... Just to write. Almost like a hobby.

XII / Shooter

I've felt really sick ever since I got home Saturday night. I've only puked twice but I had to call in sick at work which sucks since I can't afford to loose any money at this point. Yaya.

However, the day has offered me the opportunity to watch movies which is something I rarely do. I love movies, but there's not enough time, also that you must have at least one and a half hour to spend. Well, my sister had rented a movie yesterday called XII (Thirteen) starring Stephen Dorff. Shortly it's about a guy who is found by a elder, he also rescued his life. Having a memory loss due to the fact of been hit by gunshots, he has not a clue who he himself is. Pretty soon, he realizes he's important. He's been claimed to have shot the American President and this is his "story" to clear his name and bring out that the American governemt is involved. The second movie I saw (like for the 10th time) is Shooter starring Mark Wahlberg. Also about a president being killed, him being framed by the government who is the reason behind it.

By me, watching two movies during a day in the same genre and the same plot maked me think. Get me no wrong, I love both movies but it always have the same aim. Bad guys - a victim - a hero etcetera. Never before given that much thought about it. + the guys are always superhot! Both Dorff and Wahlberg are hotties and I usually don't get attracted by that type of guys, but I guess it's something about their personalities. Smart and brave.

Too far gone

As you may know, I recently got a sibling. Well, she's ten weeks by now. Anyway, I love her. But not as much as I love my shoes. Like you may know, there's a special bond with your sister and brother. You get into fights. Tonight I'd rather say I got into a fight with my heels. They killed me. Never done before. Thought my feet were going to crash any second.

I know you're working and that ain't wrong

LDN

Dad bought me tickets to London about an hour ago.
He's the keenest one you may meet and I love him.
IT WILL BE RAD. (Like always)
Guess I have to endure not moving there 'till January.

Shit, piss, fuck, cunt, cocksucker, motherfucker, tits, fart, terd, and twat.

CRAWL

Today's +

Going to order tickets for Kings Of Leon during today
Schools over for the weekend.
Spent time with Meds.
Went to the gym and got my Converse since I by accident left them there a few days ago.

Today's -

It's been raining all day long and I just realized it's a thunderstorm.
I'm going to work in less than an hour.
Forgot to go lend a book for my studies at the library.

Four kicks

I quite miss being blond.

ROB IS SO BEAUTIFUL THAT IT MAKES ME HURT INSIDE

Sex weeks left. Make it go fast.

I'm facing a break down any day. I can't imagine how my body feels due to all the stress I'm having. My studies is the main reason of my up and down mood and me myself can't handle it for much longer. Constantly having headache and issues not being able to concentrate etc. Tomorrow, for example, I'm having a huge writing. I've tried to study but can't remember anything since there's many other projects that's on my mind. There's six weeks left til I graduate, but honestly, I'm worried that it won't work out like it usually always somehow do for me.

Such a charmer

Motherfucker from hell

I'm more annoyed than usual. Some people don't fucking know how to behave. For example, I instantly found out that a friend of mine began talking about my sexual life with a guy I've slept with. Truthfully, she shouldn't even be involved but mainly WHY BEGIN A DISCUSSION WITH HIM?! It seems that she doesn't even quite get that that's something you don't to, like this unwritten rule.

PS. I overslept. Had managed to set my alarm clock at "21.25" instead of "09.25". Sucks quite bad since I really should be in school by now, having P.E.

FUCK FUCK FUCK

I feel more useless, ugly, regretful, awful than ever. I was healthier both psychological and physical less than two months ago. Something went wrong and I really must make something about it. I'm quite aware of the problem, but it's hard to make such a life changing over a night. But, it's totally worth it, therefore I mention how I know I'll feel in a few weeks (+some things that will help me fix this dilemma):

• healthier
• happier
• more satisfied
• given a self-confidence boost
• better grades
• something to look forward to

Me and Mr. Darcy (Me and Mr. Pattinson)

Work went by pretty fast, luckily enough. Although I quit 22.20 I went to Cissi and Stella's place since their birthday is coming up at Sunday. It was fun but made me even more tired so I went home pretty early and have managed to take a shower and begun to read a book by Alexandra Potter called "Me and Mr. Darcy".

Let's whisper

It's sunny outside and I'm off to work, which I really wish I wouldn't have to be.

Loosing you

I hate myself for loosing you (it)

Maybe it will be too late.
Maybe I'll find it when I've bought a new one.
Maybe my father won't be surprisingly mad with me for loosing my car key.
Maybe I won't have to pay 400 dollars buying I new one.
I do hope so.

Alison Mosshart

Is my lesbian crush.

When I get out of bed (you know I miss you)

Fakeness

I hate being used.
What I hate even more, is not to realize before it's too late.

Pre PMS

Haven't had any inspiration, neither time to focus on my blog. Have faced the reality - that I'm truly a dreamer who has lost all inspiration for everything. Can't take care of myself, my studies, family, work. Nothing. Maybe it's the pre PMS that's talking? Don't know. I hope so.

Anyway, I earlier wrote about I expect an addition to my family. She's two weeks old this Friday, is going to be named Greta and screams 24/7. For that I love her. J/K. It's crazy how you can love a creature who's been in your life for just a few weeks...

.

SOMETIMES I WISH I WAS A GUY SO I COULD JAM MY DICK DOWN YOUR THROAT AND FUCK EVERYTHING YOU’VE EVER SAID ABOUT ME.

Ever felt someone controls your life?

Seriously.
I'm scared of myself.
And its getting worse for each day.
I'm slowly realizing it's starting to take control of my life.
Or, should I say HE.
Because it's a "he" that controls my life.
Whatever I do, includes him.
During classes, I fantasy about him.
During my working out I see him in front of me.
I know I'd do anything for him.
At the same time I "love" him, I hate him.
Because I'll become fucking devastated when he gets a girlfriend.
And It won't take a long time.
It should be me, but I doubt (read: know) he wouldn't date a fan.
Damn.
I wish this obsession would have an end.
But it won't.
Why must he be so fucking talented and handsome?
I hate you,
Robert Pattinson

Sincerly,
Sandra

Tomorrow. Please kill me.

Note to self: (what must "do:s" tomorrow)

• school
• gym
• STUDY (have this huge and important exam next week in Psychology)
• study even more for my PA-work, I just realized there's less than a month left til it should be handed in. I haven't even begun writing or made re-searches.
  

We've got a big mess on our hands

I've gained weight. It makes me feel horrible.

Stupido

FUCK. I overslept this morning and missed English class. At the moment, I'm drinking a cup of coffee and waiting to leave for school in a few minutes. Entertaining myself by surfing on youtube. I bursted out laughing when someone had written a comment about Rob Pattinson's song "Broken". She was wondering if he sang "I was broke" or "I was broken". Haha Supposed to have a test in History today but somehow, my thoughts doesn't seem to hold on to the information.

Marcus Foster & Bobby Long

Enjoy.

As if I'm religious

It's been a while since I saw Twilight. A week or so. I'm going to watch it once again in a few minutes... Must get some strength to manage going to church tomorrow morning. As if I'd enjoy it! I'm good during the Religion class but I'm not religious AT ALL. What I don't get is why they force us going to church a Saturday morning. I have better things to do, to study for the history and psychology exam at Tuesday and Wednesday. I'm doomed to fail at the moment. I must study for it straight when I get home from church tomorrow.

Every now and then, I'm grateful that I know Spanish, when you find a website like this for example. Have I told you a love that man?

I got a call from a friend of mine earlier tonight. She's soon finished with her Make Up artist education but has one final task left in April and she wants me to model for it. Catwalk, Photo shoot - you name it. "I'm going to be a supermodel.... lalalala" (continues singing)

Stupid stomach

My stomach is killing me, like seriously killing me. Haven't slept a minute during the night and I won't be able to do it tonight either. No school at all, instead I'll "wake up" early for a walk. After that, breakfast and later the gym. I hope my stomach will be better after doing that. I've also planned to study, History, Psychology and English.

Dead and done

This must have been the most ineffective weekend for a long time from one point of view. Sure, I've been working (fri, sat, sun) and earned a lot of money. I also went downtown yesterday to buy a new mascara from Make Up Store but haven't tried it yet. I don't get the hysteria about Valentines Day, I'm one of those who says "why celebrate it? we should give each other love every single day whatsoever!" but at the same time I'm contradiction since I bought flowers and sweets for my family. Uh?

I just got home from Kelly's place. Since I'm good with hair I've colored it a few times but we didn't finish it due to the fact she needs to buy some more different colors. The goal is to make it a color close to mine and I think it'll look awesome. I've planned to go to the gym tomorrow morning (will I manage to get out of bed?) and then color and cut her hair.

Speaking of beautyproducts, I need to buy a new foundation and I'm thinking of one from MAC. I've already had Dior, Lancome, YSL, Make Up Store, Clinique - you name it but I'm curious about the ones from MAC. Have you tried it?

And yeah... I still haven't realized the Blink-182 reunion.

The end.

Crawl

It's snow outside. A lot of it. I just got home from Kelly's place. Off to work in a few hours. I really don't want to. Meanwhile, I'm listening to Kings of Leon. Life's easier with them in my life. I can't make up my mind about what to do after work, I finish at 10.15 PM, I don't want to head home straight after but I'm also way too lazy to go out clubbing. Such a dilemma.

Never kiss your dreams goodbye

Freaky

I logged on a community a few minutes ago and someone had commented a picture of me. Mostly, you get happy about compliments but this one just made me feel uncomfortable. It said:

"I'm gonna be straight up with you. Your face is a perfect 10! You got the look of cuteness, desire, passion, beauty, astonishing eyes, and I can go on. You are blessed with the most beautiful face."

Seriously, why put THAT much effort by being detailed in a pic comment?

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Use your love

The few last days in pictures.

Me handle money? ME?!

I've spent way too much money the last two weeks, around 600 dollars or so. The problem is that if I'd been any thoughtful at all, I'd bought a new pair of glasses since I'm practically blind. I found a pair of glasses that I really liked today. I suppose I must wait two weeks more 'til I get my money to buy them.

I'm going to the gym in a few minutes, listen to Blink 182 and be all happy about the reunion.

Blink 182 reunion

BLINK 182 IS BACK!!! (I told you they would)
My first and biggest love.

What to do when you're bored

Pimp your agenda... I'm satisfied with mine. Can't make up my mind if it's because of the majority of the space is covered by Robert Pattinson or if the purple's gone...

The Sky Could Fall Tonight

Today: The mall with Malin. Later, some coffee with the Christodoulou's. Carolina above.

Yesterday: Malin (who I've been to London with the last two times) visited her grandmother who lives in my town. After work, we went and grabbed a coffee and later to my place.

I managed to do some shopping in less than 30 minutes. I'm a professional.

Some of the clothing been bought this weekend.